To Change or not to change???

You know when you're in a relationship....you try to change...you compromise just to make sure you're making your present partner be satisfied and happy to be with you....He or she would be proud to call you his/her partner and intro you to all their friends and if you're realli committed to their respective parents....

But what happens when all the sudden...things change...relationship changes...you're not as special as you thought you were...you realise that maybe the chase was all that mattered to them and you're getting boring??? WHat do you do then? Do you change or stay the way you are???

I tried it....i changed a lot for a guy....thought he'd want me even more if i were more feminine...more outgoing...more gila or something.....calls that were frequent became a rare thing....conversations were based on smses....dates were replace with working schdules....laughter became tears and madness....i keep asking myself why???? Why the sudden effect??? And then i find out....the old me was what he wanted all along...that he didnt like the new me...maybe coz it was too intimidating...i'll never know....

So where do i stand now you ask me??? What do i gota do to salvage this already crooked and complicated situation....COMPROMISE according to MY LIFE and how i want it to be....I gotta stop changing myself just coz someone else who's not realli sure yet wether he wants me in his life for a long time....

A Curiosity

So here's the thing....its been quite awhile since i actualli pondered about something or just wanted to say sumthing out loud....all i wanna know is...what is wrong with today's masculine humans???? The word male potrays a certain masculine attribute which is why it was given to you fools in the first place...Leader of the pack, Man of the house, Head of the family....the BOSS...watever the hell you like to call yourselves...but seriusli....you guys are what we call a perfect definiation of dumbness and cowardness.....you wanna know the meaning of coward...or what a coward is...look in the mirror guys...you'll soon find out....

They say that guys will never know what a woman would want...the thing is...its the man that do not know what they want...maybe its both...that i wont deny...but damn...we gals are trying to figure out what the hell you guys realli want....and we try to alter our personality...our bodies for that matter just to satisfy you....but in the ned...its never enough...is it???

Gals...sad to say...have an obsession...when you're with a guy....you wanna be with the guy...you wanna tell him every single thing that happens to you...even the littlest small cut or bruise...but guys seem to have this tendency of not wanting to care...or not exactly paying attention....DUDES....we gals are here for a reason...not just to entertain your every need...but also for you to love and care...right???

We help you 24/7...we hear your every problem...we try to help if we could...we sympathize..but when it comes to the part where we need your help...or when we just need some 'quiet' time together....well its just not possible...Is it just me or guys would rather spend time with themselves rather than with their respective partners???

Am i the only one clueless or does every gal face the same motion....the reason i dun bother the guy i like is because i never wanna be a damn nuisance...i dun like to see the guy 24/7 for fear of getting bored of each other....but not seeing each other at all...then that would be impossible...right??? of coz it spices up the relationship....but too long will cause them to fade away from each other....talking on the phone is something that i love to do....not keeping in contact would be something i would rather not face....

Over the years...i realise that i never was a good gf....i hardly cared...i hardly felt connected to any of them...well there was one or two i thought i was hopelessli in love with...but in the end i found out it wasnt realli love...more like crush or learning about love...the thing is...its curious that we wonder and we wonder what the hell is gonna happen....when is it gonna happen...we are curious as to when his eyes will realli open and realise that heyyyy....there she is...the love i've been finding for....im gonna do everything i can to make her happy..to make her mine.

My oh my....that would be an awesome event if it were to happen....someday i guess....someday...for now..its just a curiosity for all chicks...